“The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing that you will make one.”
2018 fast arrived and the past year released, we enter a Master (11) year releasing, reorganizing and reclaiming. In 2017, we may have found things about ourselves that surprised us in good and not so good thought-forms and/or beliefs… this was the duties of the Saturn in Sagittarius. These last three years have redefined who and what we are and open doorways to our inner truths. Accepting these may not be the easy things to perceive, yet in the simplest forms of taking control of each day, we found that those beliefs holding us back only kept us in our own discontentment. Many of us jumped into what we truly wanted to do, like the move to a new location, new career, new relationship and now the little details of completion of that dream now at hand. We are the ones co-creating our adventures.
Saturn is often referred to as the Father figure/Mother energy…taskmaster, karma balance planet, resistance and persistence present in our lives. Now Saturn is home in Capricorn, we may feel perhaps we can breathe a little easier, yet this may not be the case in this 11 year if we didn’t decide on a goal to obtain or to go for this year and for the next few years. If we felt anxiety and uncertainty about how to figure that goal out. Capricorns are known for always having a goal or figuring out the next one as they are the builders and the doers. They climb that mountain with step by step guide and reach that goal every time. In this year of 11 or 2, we are getting to know we are not alone in this adventure and we are co-creating with our inner guidance or learning to trust that guidance or intuition. Those intuitive hits or gut feelings are increasing and your allowing, while following is the key for this year to avoid the negative aspects of anxiety, feeling off and out of touch.
Being balanced is key for this year and the number(s) 2 and 11 will assist you. Focusing on your happiness, love and your goals are the ways to assure yourself to get the best out of this year ahead. Knowing you will be able to find what you need to get your goals when you trust, breathe and allow the flow of magic in your life. If you are feeling alone, you are cutting yourself off in resisting and block that magic. Recenter, meditation and reconnect with that inner vision/voice and trust what you sense. Building trust with your intuition and those whispers will help you get your goals and much more…confidence, clarity, and co-creation.
Full moon glows for us into this promise
New Year of potentials and progress
step by step, we climb this new mountain
or over that plateau looming in front of us
giving us confidence, support, and drive
trusting our feelings, with love in the lead
All is possible, All is in the knowing
We are in this together and together we can get this done
Let Love fill your heart, mind, and spirit
Your soul is in charge of this time and adventures
You may have missteps, trip, and fall
Just look up…there is a hand to help you up.
Trust with love in your inner wisdom
It is time to shine your inner brilliance.
Enjoy your journey in this magical year of 2018
and simply be in trust and in love.
Change doesn’t feel comfortable… embrace the feeling and keep moving in that direction…
regardless of the pull (ego/resistance) to stay comfortable.
The reward of peace and the feel of you is amazing. ~jh
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Within each of us are the blessings of experiences, inner knowing wisdom and exactly how to achieve what seemingly feels impossible. The body, heart, and being are the way to the truth with trust in recognizing this simple fact. Yet doing just that can be an experience all unto itself. We may feel the need to wait for more clarity and postpone doing anything. While doing that, we lose ground with taking that much-needed action to live the dream we may desperately need now. The frustration grows and yet this is exactly what we need to push us through the breakdown into a breakthrough.
Until you truly trust yourself in directing your energy and your life the way you wish it to be it can feel like you are repressing the true rebel you intuitively know you are. It is finding your way to that rebel and accepting the wise insights and courage to bring forth that courage of the rebel.
With embracing the rebel, the creative genius is alive, magical and with synchronistic happenings in beauty and graceful ways. It is when you take those right actions, even if you aren’t 100% sure they are right. Taking the risks trusts the rebel, yet it is more than that. It aligns the body, heart and being into one focus. Power is intensified by this knowing. That inner voice and inner child join forces to release the burdens of others you may have been carrying without knowing or worse we do know and we choose to remain in misery out of some kind of obligations that others have placed on us.
Taking a step into freedom, you shake up the norm and create your own reality.
As we aren’t guaranteed tomorrow, attempting to pull the Scarlett O’Hara line (“There’s always tomorrow!”) isn’t the best advice to take. You have this one moment at a time. We can make excuses and lots of reasons not to take those adventures, yet we are only holding ourselves back out of fear and in truth, those are illusions of the mind. Your mind is not supposed to be the one in control. And if you are anxious, frustrated and still hesitating on taking those steps you know in your heart are right and having the excuse of waiting for more clarity… you are only bullshitting yourself and hurting yourself. No one can make you do anything and you are continuing the mind game.
In time, the excuses are only going to continue the dark nights of the soul until you do exactly what you wanted to do in the first. Throwing off the safety nets and need to know everything before you move forward towards your dream brings you the steps towards living that dream. It is actually taking that leap of faith that you gain that safety net as you are trusting you will be okay and using that courage, faith, and diving into the dream.
A few years ago, I ran away from home. I simply decide that I needed to get away from the overwhelming pressure and stress for a few months and just requested one thing to start me off: A place to stay. I asked a client/friend who I know had two bedroom place in this location. She said sure for a couple of weeks and after that, we would come to a financial agreement. No problem. I packed what I needed for this and left. At the end of two weeks, I knew it was time to move on, so I called another friend and asked if we could get together… he had a birthday party to go to and invited me to come along. There, I met the woman’s three dogs. All the dogs seemed to be expecting me and the last one to come to me was part Akita. I had four Akita in the past. A sign to ask if someone had a place for me to stay for awhile and the woman said she was looking for someone to take care of the dogs and do some errands for her for a work for rent situation. I said yes and moved in the next day. It worked out beautifully. I had a new place to live and it was free except for making sure the dogs were taken care of… easy as these dogs enjoyed my company. I was happy and my income increased. Things fall into place for me, meeting new friends and living a few miles away from my childhood home. I felt I was home, center for myself and with that, I knew it was time to go back home to complete the responsibilities I had waiting for me. I went home after the magic began to fade a bit. When I returned, I took on the leftover burdens created and restarted my life. Things opened up to me and I found the peace I needed from taking that leap. It may have been just a temporary break, yet I trusted what I intuited and followed my heart in each step. I found what I needed one step at a time. So happy I did it.
Following what you know is right; the Divine will guide you with ease and grace every time. Make that decision and listen to the whispers open you up to a whole new reality of possibilities. If you don’t, you are choosing to remain stuck and no one to blame but yourself. The choice is only yours…No one else. Choose with the whispers of your heart. Watch the miracles happen as you right before you.
image by jennifer hillman
Amen for the journey.
the tumbleweeds never stuck around too long
nor the heartbreak lingers into the recesses of life.
the heart opens and the truth falls before you…
be able to see the beauty, the grace, and love
that keeps you going,
with a deeper compassion, determination, and gratitude
for your journey.
the ride of your lifetime…
as you create the mysteries and mystic connections
between words and heart
emotions deepening than more you reach in…
your soul welcomed you;.
taking your hand and consoled you
another lesson as the tears wiped away… again.
the inner light brightens a few more amps
as your dreams seem a bit closer
as you brush off the dust
clean up your hands and face
seeing the smile growing with the laughter
nothing stays the same
everything changes with each breath
thoughts dance as dreams formulate
so dance with life… the answers you seek will come…
in the bizarre moment of motion…
breathing in the sweetness enduring caress of love. ~jh
In the presence of all that is… I sensed Love; that embracing all consuming essence of Love and Joy and Peace and… You can name and place any and all positive adjectives here. It was a moment of moments… remembering the truth and remembering that truth I didn’t want to leave, forget nor let go of. Especially after the Silence spoke: “You are Love and Loved. Don’t Forget That.”
I didn’t forget the words, yet at times, I did the meaning. I got wrapped up in the “worldly” things. Then something always took me back to that moment and that feeling of this is just an experience I signed up for and simply enjoy the illusion. You don’t have to nor are buying it… just experiencing this potential. The highs and the lows.
And that is what this is about… the experience of understanding this game of life.
Those moments of desperate angst as the life stops flowing and then when you can’t seem to do anything wrong. You are in the life’s flow or vortex. It is all magic and love.
Magic is the understanding your own power of imagination and with a little thought about that possibility…the Universe says…Okay, that is what you want to experience so you get it…that you don’t want that experience…really. You know you can do better and slowly you do. You focus your thoughts and move into a better way of thinking… Or I did. Those words after the head-on collision:
“You are Love and Loved.”
How more simple can they say it? It can be so simple that one may just scratch the head and go “HUH?”
The spiritual teachers and gurus tell you the same and as humans, we can make it so difficult… I know I did.
Yet the Universe is listening and watching. And they tend to show me in the direction of someone who knows it and opens the mind up again…And again, and again. I do get it.
And as the moment of sharing a loving conversation with a wonderful friend this morning who gets it too… and the unlimited of this experience is now, I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be for this time, being love and being loved. Trusting the thoughts of unlimited potentially are all for the highest good with compassion and joy.
It is simple to make life easy or difficult. The more demands of your thoughts, the more you are asking to be reminded of the simple fact… You are love and loved. BE.
Be happy, be kind and be open to the experiences you create into your life. You are not your body… You are a soul and love in the pure essence in all that is. Be real. Be true. Be creative in your experience…Be in love. Namaste. ~jh
originally posted in 2011 on “JennHillmanReflections”
“The greatest wealth is a poverty of desires.” ~Seneca~
I recently wrote the Universe
Knowing in truth
a note to myself
about the parallel and oppositions
flowing through my mind
loses and gains
the presence of truth
the beauty of love
the grace of sensing
all the world within me
looking at my experiences
materially and spiritually
counting the blessings
in the loss of most material things
opening the heart
to the spirit
feeling an emptiness
of wanting to do this or that
wondering if I am out of alignment?
perspective off in some way?
Is my integrity intact
as I did stop walking my talk
In the sense of doing that and this?
Just didn’t have the need, want or desire for it
Feeling just a strange knowing
And somehow not right
Now realizing in truth
I am right on due course
To true Self
Living a freedom
Alien to me before.
Busyness not needed
My mind seems wanders
Maybe I ought to be doing
Then I stop and ask myself
a simple question
Is this my mind or my heart/soul speaking?
The words vanish most of the time
Unless the heart/soul speaking
The nudge to get moving start kicking in
I just smile with the brilliance of the signs
I am receiving for confirmation to my letter
Eight simple words placed before my eyes
“The greatest wealth is a poverty of desires.”
From the wisdom of Seneca
That emptiness is filling with love, joy, and compassion
As my world lifts up and beyond my mind’s desires and needs.
Knowing my needs and desires are already met.
It is worth repeating…
“The greatest wealth is a poverty of desires.” ~Seneca~
Embrace your emptiness
and let your heart fill it with Love
and the universe will deliver just what you need. ~jh