CLARITY TO YOUR DREAMS

CLARITY TO YOUR DREAMS

Change doesn’t feel comfortable… embrace the feeling and keep moving in that direction…
regardless of the pull (ego/resistance) to stay comfortable.
The reward of peace and the feel of you is amazing. ~jh
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Within each of us are the blessings of experiences, inner knowing wisdom and exactly how to achieve what seemingly feels impossible. The body, heart, and being are the way to the truth with trust in recognizing this simple fact. Yet doing just that can be an experience all unto itself.  We may feel the need to wait for more clarity and postpone doing anything. While doing that, we lose ground with taking that much-needed action to live the dream we may desperately need now. The frustration grows and yet this is exactly what we need to push us through the breakdown into a breakthrough.

Until you truly trust yourself in directing your energy and your life the way you wish it to be it can feel like you are repressing the true rebel you intuitively know you are. It is finding your way to that rebel and accepting the wise insights and courage to bring forth that courage of the rebel.

With embracing the rebel, the creative genius is alive, magical and with synchronistic happenings in beauty and graceful ways. It is when you take those right actions, even if you aren’t 100% sure they are right. Taking the risks trusts the rebel, yet it is more than that. It aligns the body, heart and being into one focus. Power is intensified by this knowing. That inner voice and inner child join forces to release the burdens of others you may have been carrying without knowing or worse we do know and we choose to remain in misery out of some kind of obligations that others have placed on us.

Taking a step into freedom, you shake up the norm and create your own reality.

As we aren’t guaranteed tomorrow, attempting to pull the Scarlett O’Hara line (“There’s always tomorrow!”) isn’t the best advice to take. You have this one moment at a time. We can make excuses and lots of reasons not to take those adventures, yet we are only holding ourselves back out of fear and in truth, those are illusions of the mind. Your mind is not supposed to be the one in control. And if you are anxious, frustrated and still hesitating on taking those steps you know in your heart are right and having the excuse of waiting for more clarity… you are only bullshitting yourself and hurting yourself. No one can make you do anything and you are continuing the mind game.

In time, the excuses are only going to continue the dark nights of the soul until you do exactly what you wanted to do in the first. Throwing off the safety nets and need to know everything before you move forward towards your dream brings you the steps towards living that dream. It is actually taking that leap of faith that you gain that safety net as you are trusting you will be okay and using that courage, faith, and diving into the dream.

A few years ago, I ran away from home. I simply decide that I needed to get away from the overwhelming pressure and stress for a few months and just requested one thing to start me off: A place to stay. I asked a client/friend who I know had two bedroom place in this location. She said sure for a couple of weeks and after that, we would come to a financial agreement. No problem. I packed what I needed for this and left. At the end of two weeks, I knew it was time to move on, so I called another friend and asked if we could get together… he had a birthday party to go to and invited me to come along. There, I met the woman’s three dogs. All the dogs seemed to be expecting me and the last one to come to me was part Akita. I had four Akita in the past. A sign to ask if someone had a place for me to stay for awhile and the woman said she was looking for someone to take care of the dogs and do some errands for her for a work for rent situation. I said yes and moved in the next day. It worked out beautifully. I had a new place to live and it was free except for making sure the dogs were taken care of… easy as these dogs enjoyed my company. I was happy and my income increased. Things fall into place for me, meeting new friends and living a few miles away from my childhood home. I felt I was home, center for myself and with that, I knew it was time to go back home to complete the responsibilities I had waiting for me. I went home after the magic began to fade a bit. When I returned, I took on the leftover burdens created and restarted my life. Things opened up to me and I found the peace I needed from taking that leap. It may have been just a temporary break, yet I trusted what I intuited and followed my heart in each step. I found what I needed one step at a time. So happy I did it.

Following what you know is right; the Divine will guide you with ease and grace every time. Make that decision and listen to the whispers open you up to a whole new reality of possibilities. If you don’t, you are choosing to remain stuck and no one to blame but yourself. The choice is only yours…No one else. Choose with the whispers of your heart. Watch the miracles happen as you right before you.

 

 

 

Clarity from the Stars

Clarity from the Stars

Asking for clarity
And the mystery gets deeper
Breathe in the Magic of the twilight
Waiting for the magic to reveal…

Dusty steel blue sky blooms before me
Breeze whispers
Continuing with ‘one step will do’

Orions belt looms above me
Hearing the fountain flowing
My mind wanders
Still looking for the magic reveal.

Silence whispers

Silence whispers

Whisperings calls
Walking within the silence
Lit by the stars
Court and spark by sweet tunes

Outline of the moon with only a smile shining
Awe-inspired by Mother Gaia and the Universe
Infinite breath of beauty
Standing on the edge of the ethers

Beauty gives life
With a kiss of each moment
Gaining perspectives and course in trust

Blessed as I witness birth
Birth of the new day
Moon still smiles with Venus above and Mercury below

I turn around to find two owls lingering nearby
A sign of prophecy, an omen, guardian of the Silence

Dreams made real…

Trust.

Truths within the in-between space

As I sit in the twilight of day and night
Magic breathes.

True North Known Within

True North Known Within

As Henry David Thoreau said so eloquently “Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.”

Looking for your north and center? Shifting tides of anxiety and peace alternating in your heart these days?

In these times of redefining your center and authentic truth, the shifting of memories dance in your mind and throw you back and forth like a doll. You just want it to stop for a few minutes to regroup into that old center of true north, yet it isn’t so easy to find. Any attachment to those memories, habits and automatic responses are telling you to grow up! Why? It seem to work before. And that is the key word here… “BEFORE”! That is a word of the past, not the present now. And each moment lingers into the past as we blending the time lines and remembrance of who we truly are and where we are heading…that true north we are all seemingly looking for this mysterious north now.

We can do our meditations, yoga, deep breathing exercise, workouts for our physical bodies. What do we do for the spiritual side of us? Meditation reconnect us to the Silence of Infinity, the Voids of Creation, The Nothingness of Truth and detachment from the human reality all know as the chaos ensuing. So what is the best thing we can do these days? Laugh. Love. Let Go. With Trust.

Trust in yourself and the inner GPS that knows the way home to the new paradigm of truth. We are heading home if you resonate in this article.

We come to understand the lessons along the way quicker, seeing the different perspectives of possibilities; Taking on the responsibilities of our choices. The altering of your mindset turns in circles as you find your new grounding post and relearn your inner door of YOU is golden with the confidence, connection, and clarity. Isn’t that what we are truly wanting to experience?

I find myself while doing grounding breathing exercises seeing specks of golden wisdom filling me with the strength, insights and connection to move forward. Each of those golden nuggets are little pieces of the true essence of me returning to realign myself to that north. The feelings of the re-balancing of the individual self (human-side) with the essence self (spiritual/energetic-side).

Through a few different methodologies, I am clearing the attachment to the past parts that held my back from this balance of Truth. Slowly finding that true north of all I truly am with this human experience and knowing it all is just a blink of an eye in this abstract Illusion of time, place and perceptions.

Trust that if you are feeling angry, irritated, and unsure…You are finding yourself going to the right path for you. Resisting or clinging to what doesn’t feel right only delays your abundances of all that you be. More breathing, less thinking helps. Connecting to your heart sounds like a cliché… yet it is truth and always will be center and allows the soul to endeavor on your right path. Having judgments about yourself or others isn’t quicken your alignment, getting impatience doesn’t help either. You will feel the push me-pull me on the edge feeling, That is when your just about home. Anxiety and upheaval lets you know you are growing and going well. The shifts will always happening, make peace with the realignment process…enjoy it as it is bring you more of what you wish to experience and removing the length of the contrasting views.

Contact me if you need some assistance. 

Some tools and other options for you:
EFT or Emotional Freedom Technique. There are many great videos on Youtube for this. Brad Yates does a great job. Or you can take a course or class online. Udemy.com is another option

Reading or Listening to positive books or videos. Abraham Hicks is available through the website, YouTube and Books.

Journal Writing has take out the energy out of the situation. Writing a letter to the person if there is a person you are upset with, including yourself. Write out all your feelings and your perspectives. You don’t need to send it to them. The energy of your words will get to them. Carolyn Riker has a journalling writing course

moments intense (poem)

moments intense (poem)

Intense passions intermingle
within the soul
wanting to break free from the chains
yet knowing it is all just perception
the immense passions intertwined
within the heart
wanting to express the beauty within
the dreams and desires hidden from view.
dancing with the energies
breathe and know the freedom is real
breathe and know the genius in you is real
breathe and know the creative ideas take form
dancing with your being
create and share your genius now
having no regrets when you do…
only if you don’t. ~jh
https://jenniferhillman.com/embracingsouls

Words to the Wise

Words to the Wise

Words to the Wise. Listen to the whispers and release the knowing.
Nothing is what is seems in the moment.” ~jh

In these times of shifts of energies, that feeling of pushing forward regardless of the outcome, the ego may push back as the old familiar comfort zone is being moved in a new shape or form. Breathe.

I am doing many new things and many old things in new ways and the familiar voice of reason comes out and attempts to stop me with sudden fatigue or distractions that may be of importance. There is always something to do in the mundane way…clean out this draw or make sure this is taken care of, taking your focus off of the new and trying to distract you from that push to grow.

Another tactic of this reasonable voice is overthinking the whole process of the new, yet you know better… to keep it simple. One step at a time, taking a moment to enjoy the process of pushing through that fear of the unfamiliar and unknown. Breathe.

Past lessons may also creep up on you and remind you of past humiliations or failures. Remember the lessons, give thanks for them and push ahead. Knowing you will always have some kind of lesson along the way as this in one of the very reason you are here…to lesson and experience.

And let’s not forget the inner voice saying you don’t know enough and do more research or classes on what to do; Procrastination in doubts of your abilities.

Yet there is a calmer, stable voice inside you, whispering these wonderful ideas and solutions that you hear, yet hesitate to trust. Could it be that simple? Simply, go do it and figure it out?

Most of us have these moments and there are many ways to clear these moments of anxiety and uncertainty. Here are a few ideas to help you push yourself over the edge and share your creative brilliance:

  • Having faith and meditate.

  • Write in your journal about all your fears to get them out in the open.

  • Do Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) tapping on the specific feeling(s) move the energy in positive ways…go for a walk in nature, dance, yoga for example.

  • Free associative writing with the fear or doubt its self or with the inner child.

  • Deal with the emotions through breathing exercises and acknowledge the feeling. Allowing to flow through you without attaching to it or the memories popping up.

  • Release through crying. A good cry gets it out of you and acknowledging it.

  • Talk to a trusted friend or professional who know how to hold the space by listening. Picking a person who thinks they know what you know to do can make it worse, not better. Choose wisely with who.

  • Acupuncture and a good massage can assistant you in releasing the tension.

  • Having an orgasm also can relieve the tension and allow you to move forward.

  • Read positive words in blogs or listen to vlogs. Just don’t use this as an excuse not to get something done.

Make a list of steps. Just do a step a day and allow yourself to get it done at the pace you are comfortable. A lesson of patience, persistence, and progress are always good to embrace as you share your brilliance.

Here are some resources for you to consider to help you forward.

EFT basic – https://youtu.be/1wG2FA4vfLQ

other ways to clear: Christine Sheldon clearing your frequency https://youtu.be/CuM678WXs0c

Marisa Peers https://youtu.be/IKeaAbM2kJg

Ride Life’s Journey

Ride Life’s Journey

image by jennifer hillman

Amen for the journey.
the tumbleweeds never stuck around too long
nor the heartbreak lingers into the recesses of life.
the heart opens and the truth falls before you…
be able to see the beauty, the grace, and love
that keeps you going,
with a deeper compassion, determination, and gratitude
for your journey.
the ride of your lifetime…
as you create the mysteries and mystic connections
between words and heart
emotions deepening than more you reach in…
your soul welcomed you;.
taking your hand and consoled you
another lesson as the tears wiped away… again.
the inner light brightens a few more amps
as your dreams seem a bit closer
as you brush off the dust
clean up your hands and face
seeing the smile growing with the laughter
nothing stays the same
everything changes with each breath
thoughts dance as dreams formulate
so dance with life… the answers you seek will come…
in the bizarre moment of motion…
breathing in the sweetness enduring caress of love. ~jh

Be the Best for You is Best for Humanity

Be the Best for You is Best for Humanity

 

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We can empower each other or take aim to destroy. The choice is ours and with the deep energy and healing potential of Scorpio, it is time to breathe, regroup and allow the shock and dismay of the current currents of energies to wash over us.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

I felt the collective shock, anger, and disbelief of the recent events in the US and reacted out of it for a few. I had allowed that overwhelm to take over until I realized what I was doing.

Change needs to happen and all is in divine order.  In the US and the world, the deep wounding had taken place where the forgotten, the erased, the unseen spoke out loud and were heard as they needed to be.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

The angry, the displaced and the monsters came out. The people who seemed invisible to them came out of the hidden place and acted out. Perhaps in cruel, nasty and ugly ways, they needed to act out to be seen.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

This humanity on this planet now is not flawless. We each played our parts in the dramas of these days of change. We all knew within our hearts and depths of being, this was going to happen… this space of change, revolution, and evolution.  We are growing up and out and uniting in forms uncertain and unknown physically…we are acting out of fear, strength and gaining a sense of self.  The fear is the illusion that needs to break apart, die and be reimagined into the truth.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

This year has shown me a life review of sorts. Having dreams upon dreams of what I have experienced… on this realm of reality and other dimensions collapsing into the centeredness of truth for me. Seeing what is the possible for me and the fall creating this current space. I know I deserve the best and have so much to offer, yet stay in the stillness a little longer to breathe. I step from this, putting my toes into the waves of possibilities again.  Slowly, I have relived my created miseries and lessons, learning the ways to be smarter, truer and lighter in my response to my creation and experiences to this life. As I become the witness as well as the actor in the worldly dance with humanity, releasing the shadows with acceptance.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

The rebellion spirit has learned the ways of magic, embracing the inner powers and senses of self-available and yearning to live… Now is the time of expression the beauty, grace and voice whispering inside you.  Caress the truth and allow the aspects of you to live, yet with the understanding of the impact on others. Remember your common sense of compassion, honesty, and acceptance. Remember that other is a reflection of you in some form, being a person, animal, or plant. Kindness being more out into this mad world of change, so together we can be that change in reflecting the goodness of humanity. We all have had enough of this shadow’s released. Let compassion, kindness, and love be your guidance in the days ahead.  Stay in tune to the moment you are living and embrace each one with breath, a smile and gratitude.

Be true to you. You are the beauty, grace, and truth of what humanity is now becoming in this great time of change. Let’s be the change of betterment. The best of you expressed is the best within you and you will receive the best in return.

Breathe, smile and be grateful.

 

Go with the Feeling

Go with the Feeling

“The Artist is no other than he who unlearns what he has learned, in order to know himself.”
~
E.E. Cummings

Minutes before the Full Moon in Gemini, I was listening to this inner voice saying so clearly, “ you will get about $2000 for your car.” The song “Can’t stop the Feeling”  by Justin Timberlake came on the radio, as different cars’ part flashed on my head and then suddenly the car in front of me stopped. I turned my car to the right to avoid it and clipped the bumper.

I said, “Okay, Universe, let me be surprised by the wonderful new things you have planned for me. “

I had been in good spirit and even after the accident, I continued to be focused and deliberate in action. I called 911, asked the other car if anyone was hurt, got my insurance information out, called my mom to come pick me up. I checked again with the young woman who hadn’t had an accident before and told them the routine. Attempted to ease her mind that she is fine and the car can easily be fixed.

It was all automatic for me. It was the third time and the last time (thank you Universe) for a totaled car. 2001, my Trooper has a mechanical failure and the car rolled over. I walked away.  In 2003, while driving down from Oregon on a road trip with friends, a drunk driver hit us. I walked away. Though I did get the reminder of “You are loved and loved! Don’t forget that.”  I haven’t and get a clue just how much this is true.

Throughout this last year, I had looked at cars and always back to the fact; I really love my little 2005 Spectra Five. I had just thought about replacing the tint on the windows and maybe a new paint job. This car fits me, though now I had outgrown the energy of this car and deserved something a little nicer. The Spectra Five now was cleared out and gone.

I am so thankful and grateful I am open to receive something new. I obviously release attitudes and things that had held me back from true progress. I have planted many seeds in my career, personal life… well, in all areas of my life; All with gratitude.

Now, I am, in a way, forced to sit still, without a car and focus on my new life and the new story I am co-creating now.  2016, year of completion, truly was a year of closing the chapters on many years of the good, the bad and lots of ugly.  The ugliest of all the contrast I had release now, seeing the damage and growth in my journey.  2017 is the year of new creation, new adventures, and new story.

And as E.E. Cummings said, I have unlearned things I had learned and realized more of who I am through this year of review and closure.  I am grateful for all of it and thankful for the insights and lessons I had been blessed with and understand now more about the power I hold dear.

Remembering the sweetness I have added to people’s lives, the smiles, comfort, the confirmation, inspiration, and strength. I have often heard from people since kids signed yearbooks “You are so sweet. Please don’t change.”  In the past, it felt like an obligation to be “sweet” or kind. Now it is an honor and a gift to share kindness and be just “me.”

Now focusing on keeping my word to myself first and then to others, all in service to the highest good. Having integrity means much to me and I have seen how I had punished myself when I felt out of it. Settling for less in all areas of my life is a change I am making. I deserve the best. Only the best.

I have manifested many wonderful things. I asked the Universe for a change agent to assist me in realigning myself to receive the best by being the best I can be.  A wonderful teacher came back into my life and I am now finishing up her brilliant class, “Thirty days to a Charmed Life.”  Bernadette Dickenson has been a good friend and a wonderful teacher/coach. We all need support. I am grateful for hers at the closing of this completing year. She is starting another one in January if you are interested.

2017 is a one year… a new story… new adventures and new possibilities. So write your new story. You know I am and I plan on writing more this new year.  Enjoy creating yours.

“Words transform both speaker and hearer; they feed energy back and forth and amplify it. They feed understanding or emotion back and forth and amplify it.” Ursula K. Le Guin

April 2017 UPDATE:  After realizing how much the local dealerships add onto the cost of the car… I told the Universe the right car for me is a private seller. I let go and went on with other things. I was still hearing from many people about getting the car. I focused on other things. One late afternoon, I decide out of the blue to go for a walk. along the way, I met up with a neighbor driving in who stopped to chat. He was selling his 2012 Honda Accord loaded with most of the things I was looking for plus more. The price was right and within a week, I got my car from a private seller at the right price.

The Universe listens… Are you?

 

The magic within your center

The magic within your center

Hold tight to the magic within you.
As the world’s chaos and madness seemingly expand.
Your magic is the key to getting through this
With your sanity, your soul and your being intact.
Focus within; on the love and know the love is real.
And this madness is the symptom of the healing the world needs.

Most of all, breathe, center and love. ~jh

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