Be Present

Be Present

{~ Redita Nesvarbu color me impressed}

{~ Redita Nesvarbu}

 

 

The Full Moon whispered to me, “Trust and be honest with yourself, your projects, ideas and, most importantly, the truth about who you are now… and who you are to be.”

I sat in the chilly morning light, feeling that sinking feeling about where I am right now. The dreams of all the missteps and mistakes — I mean, lessons — I have learned along the way to this point in my life.

The feeling of frustration grew as I realized where I am and the visions I have seen of my future, where I may have been, aren’t aligned. I keep changing my mind out of convenience, and at the end of this or that road, the 2×4 waited for me.

Having taken responsibility for the paths I have taken, I gave myself permission to be the rebel, yet somehow the pressures of societal obligations beat me down. And this is the place I have been in for a while.

The highs and lows of this manic existence haven’t helped.

Tears, writing and making a new plan of directions… reevaluating that vision I had and the passion I still hold for it gets me to a space between worlds and looking for some balance in it all.

Balance is one of the themes of this Full Moon in Libra. I have been reading about this Full Moon vibe being about relationships… mainly a relationship with yourself, your path/journey and making peace with where you are now.

I am releasing the critic inside with forgiveness for those missteps and repeating lessons, simply finding my priorities in my current state, letting go of the past thoughts and ideas except for the ones echoing from my soul.

Am I hearing my soul? Did I listen to my soul correctly the last time I was in this spot?

Yet, I don’t think I have been at this spot before, except for the echoing ideas that seem to cling to me.

As the ascension slowly moves through the cycles and circles of life’s journey, I look backward to see how much I have grown within the silence.

The Full Moon and the silence seem to be conspiring together right now and laughing at this situation. The urgency for completion of projects and ideas sweeps over me like a fever.

I work and get interrupted by the physical world’s needs. That is the frustration building inside me in this moment. As the famous line of Greta Garbo from Grand Hotel goes, “I want to be alone.”

The Full Moon sees this, and the eclipsing energies in my house of service aren’t helping me complete my priorities or allowing me that alone time I so need. Yet service to others is a priority, right? I stop and count my blessings.

Breathe in, recenter and continue.

I am getting closer to completing some of those projects, including another book of poetry named 30, an online class of shadow work, and knowing those books halfway completed are getting done.

I am remembering to breathe, walking in nature, listening to the wind whispering magical ideas and insights to me, and enjoying this process.

The Full Moon whispered to me in the morning, allowing and reminding me about all the situations I’ve been through… and that’s it… I got through it all. I am still here, giving, surrendering and being present to the magic around me.

One of the most repeated thoughts I have is, Live Your Magic. And that is exactly what my priority is. Live and Be Magic.

 

Lie down with Mother Nature
Feel the sweet embrace of her Beingness
the vastness of possibilities with Father Sky above
Be at peace with your magic, dwelling deep within you.
Allow yourself to melt into one
All your aspects with the Divinity of Love.
Be at peace with all you are and will be.

*****

published on Rebelle Society on March 29, 2016

Jupiter with the Moon

Jupiter with the Moon

 

 

 

(c)JenniferHillman.com

(c)JenniferHillman.com

 

Behind the wisp of clouds
Above the trees,
singing in the breeze
Jupiter kissed the Moon
softly and then moved on
like soft touching lovers of the past
remembering those stolen moments.
smiling and saying goodbye. ~jh

 

Colors of Spring

Colors of Spring

{Free to be me _Fantasy man}

{Free to be me _Fantasy man}

 

colors of spring before your eyes
bold, alive and reaching high
dancing among the flowers and truth
humming wings of heaven’s messengers
singing songs of joy and plenty.
open your arms and heart
new beginning for this year
smile wide with the moment’s breath
enjoy this first of spring. ~jh

Yet Knowing

Yet Knowing

woman writing

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mind scattered
Overactive and undeceive
Visions of the missteps,
mistakes into lessons
laughing now after tears flowed
clearing the way to something now
stepping up with ideas
embracing them
find my way to completion
just get them done
Virgo comes to visit
details unfolding
offering what I have
not sure if it matters.

Reminding myself to center
in chaos swirls in the living
feeling the shadow’s caress
in the early mornings

the memories repeating
shaking me awake to breathe
Chiron and Neptune came to visit
lists of things still to do
seeing it continuing
growing distance to completion
knowing and sensing where I am to be
yet not.
overwhelming and
yet knowing too this is all temporary.

so write for a moment
clearing it all out of me
while listening to music
hearing the songs of other’s struggle
agreements being here
wishing the outcome was different
yet knowing it is for the best.
Surrendering and acceptance
The downfalls, rising to fall again
Yet knowing to rise again
Finding the balance in heart and love
the ways of the human experience expanding
Like the dream, one may want to wake up from
yet knowing within the unknowing
that is all it is. ~jh

Sun streams, Shadows and Silence

Sun streams, Shadows and Silence

intro Sunstreams

 

Sun streams through the window

Dancing with the shadows on the wall

Cat curled up and asleep on the bed not far behind me.

On this powerful and magically day
like all days within this dreams

I write with gratitude
noticing the sunbeams, shadows and silence

embracing this moment
deep breath and smiling
stopping the scattering of thoughts
focusing on my blessings

On dreams unfolding
on visions in dreams
on knowing the impermanence

Of this dreams within dreams

Giving thanks for the forgiving
on choices and actions taken
listening to that inner voice and child
relaxing and dancing in song

seeing the path chosen
the weaving and twisted turns along the way

The magic collected
with wisdom

Of being the woman

I AM

Love of music
diving into the mysteries within
seeing the veiling between me and truth
clear, thinning and disappearing

Like notes in a song

Like memories in the wind
like whispers in the moonlight
the universe is always presence
like the heartbeat and breath

I have learned lessons well

and words on the page
connect me and release me

At the same time

Blessings surround me

Like that sunshine, shadows and silence’s secrets. ~jh

Listen to Jen’s reading of this poem
https://youtu.be/M7sLFoWqqEw

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