Walking with my Shadow

Walking with my Shadow


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“Your life will be transformed when you make peace with your shadow. The caterpillar will become a breathtakingly beautiful butterfly. You will no longer have to pretend to be someone you’re not. You will no longer have to prove you’re good enough. When you embrace your shadow you will no longer have to life in fear. Find the gifts of your shadow and you will finally revel in all the glory of your true self. Then you will have the freedom to create the life you have always desired.” ~Debbie Ford


Lots of changes, processing and observing has happened within many of us. People come and go as people fulfill the shared agreement or found some kind of new understand with people. Perhaps it is just more distance between or the form of conversation change as the friendships are evolving. It is all part of the transition we all are feeling late.

It has been no different for me. I normally would be writing about the process and observation as it occurs, yet this time, I knew I need quiet in my reflections. Especially when two trusted healers to tell me there is a childhood wound in the process of healing and the scab has been just pulling off. OUCH! Why did I do that?

I really thought I was done processing and healing that one!?

Repeating affirmations and gaining some reasons for the continuing angst of my inner child, we regained the connection into whole again. As this process was going on, out of the shadows came a black cat. Long slender like a Black Panther or Jaguar (the energy of reclaiming your power), he came to greet me one early morning as I returned from my walking meditation. It was still rather dark out and I didn’t see him yet, just a quick movement to the bush. Slowly he approaches with an easy stroke and attitude. I touched him and he purred loudly. Laying his head on my shoulder as I stroke his black body, he loved the attention. He reminded me of another cat who appeared out of nowhere, full of love I named Shadow. This Shadow stayed around so I gave him some food and water. He soon found a mouse (details) and chased it. I got the mouse away from him only to turn around to find the mouse in Shadow’s mouth again.

Each morning, Shadow would greet me with a loud meow. I would pick him up and go on my walking meditation with Shadow in my arms. Listening to the consisted rolling music from this Shadow as he looked around from a high perspective that the surroundings gave me insights to at my inner wounds from a higher place to reflect just what was I gaining from this story hindering my life. Why was it repeating into this time or was this like a test to see my reaction or response to it? It was a month between the two healers told me about the lingering angst of my inner child. She was reflecting my feelings about my life and all the pieces seeming missing. The hiding inside and lurking with wonder at what do I want to do now.





The walks continued for a week when another black cat, smaller in size, yet the same demeanor appeared at my door. Friendly and hungry, playful and full of curious, like myself after looking from a different perspective with my inner child, not just at my inner child. Integration with the fighter inside, longing to be heard was taking place. Soon, the original larger Shadow wasn’t around as much as the little Shadow was sticking around all day, laying on a child out front, waiting peacefully for something to intrigue him.

I continued walking, joined by now both Shadows, running, climbing trees and chasing each other. Cats are the independent spirit with mischievous nature of magic. Black is all the colors mixed together and the purity of going within to be in the light.

Signs are always around you if you are aware of your environment. Subtle awareness of things being different from before and opening your mind to the consciousness of your truth assists the process. As you embrace your life, walk with your shadow, you find the magic returns and manifestation of joy comes with intentions.


PS: The cats are owned by a neighbor who leaves the window open for them. They are safe and well taken care of by the entire neighborhood. I call them “the community therapy cats”.



Drink a Sip of Life

Drink a Sip of Life




Drink a sip of life
Slowly meandering the flavors and essences
Of moments and memories
Making you… YOU.

The hugs and kisses of passions
The kicks and licks of learning
Whispers of the heart
And the madness of the mind

Touch the unlimited nature of your divine
Dance with your magic of your soul
Taste the sweetness of being alive
Seeing all you be…
Dream all you are to be.

Take another sip of life
In all its colors, forms and nudges
Feel the energies caress you slowly
Be grateful for the love you be
And all the possibilities left to create.

Kiss the moonbeams
Dance with the sun or stars
Merriment be your choice
Love is love in all its forms.

Just keep sipping the dreams of your being. ~jh

A Joyful Conversation

A Joyful Conversation

I am honored to be a part of Joy Holland”s Joy in Daily Life TODAY! Listen to this and I hope you are inspired.

Joy Conversation


Day Three {Manifesting with Joy in Daily Life *free* teleseries}

Today’s guest is Jennifer Hillman from Jennifer Hillman.com

Jennifer’s bio:

A born educator, counselor and psychic adviser, Jen Hillman recognized her calling while attending an elementary school where she overcame a speech and learning disability (dyslexia). She then committed herself to teach others that they too have the power to do the same.

Jen’s belief system has been developed through a combination of observation, channeling, and the studies of the Mayan, Kabbalah, Shamanism, Christianity, and Buddhism, to name a few. She believes that souls choose the lessons or patterns prior to this lifetime, and make agreements with the spirits and souls that will guide, meet, and love them in this life. Besides her natural gifts of clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, empathy, and channeling/mediumship, Jen has accumulated other certifications and licenses to offer the most guidance and assurance to her clients. Her certifications are listed below.

She continues her education with the best service herself and her clients. Her multiple gifts teach and educate her international clientele in recognizing their patterns so that they too may reach their goals and dreams.

Jen lives in the Southern Arizona desert with her tabby cat, Buttons. She works on her professional projects including her company Jennifer Hillman, Inc doing business as Angels Intuition, Inner Strength Coaching, and Abstract Illusions. Jen is also a published writer and poet. She has contributed to Huffington Post, Rebelle Society, Spiritual Poetry of Women and many others. She has two books of poetry published; “Embracing Souls: Poetry of the Dance, Volume I” & “Words of the Heart” with more of her poetry available on her EmbracingSouls.com She developed and teaches “The Inner Strength Self Awareness Program/Class” and “INOB, Individual Notion of Being.”

**To listen to my conversation with Jennifer (without signing up for the series), please click this link: http://events.instantteleseminar.com/?eventid=75489717

I am blessed to be surrounded by empowered woman who choose to celebrate life and create while they are celebrating. Many of them are sharing their manifesting experience and insights in this series. The list of speakers, and the registration series form, can be found on the information page, here: http://facetsofjoy.com/manifesting-with-joy-in-daily-life-…/

Happy Manifesting!!


Heart Telepathy

Heart Telepathy

{via Judy Schmidt ESA Hubble NASA}

{via Judy Schmidt ESA Hubble NASA}


A soft breeze whispers in the heart.
a quiet hello is felt
feelings are words within the silence of the unknown
yet caress the soul into life-giving of the all
Love sweet, life giving
connection to all that is
tender dance within the moment’s breath
linger gently within the knowing of your soul
feeling within yet apart of the beingness
a warming hug and tidal wave of emotions
joy, happiness and oh sweet love.
the universal telepathy of the heart
timeless inspirations of the mastery
consciousness aware
of the depth of Love
in all forms
always able to touch that sweet spot of the heart
the center of your universe
linking you to all the Love truly be. ~jh